I woke up this morning thinking it was Saturday. I only felt slightly sorry for myself in realizing it IS Wednesday. After all, only last Tuesday I was in London. I’ve only been back from vacation one full week. I came back ready to pounce back on my workload and push projects forward. I like to juggle multiple projects to fruition. I get energized and satisfaction from basking in completion.
I came back from my two week holiday to minimal work issues. My team had run our area perfectly in my absence. Yesterday, I got through the last of the 485 vacation emails vying for my attention. I’m finally all caught up on what happened in my absence. And I can focus on the present and the future.
My assimilation back into my life has been inhibited by some nasty sinus hoopla. It started as a headache on Thursday and Friday. It busted apart some time on Saturday and started oozing from all my facial orifices. Sunday night and Monday, I was sporting a cigarette and whiskey soaked voice. I also started hacking. When my plans fell through on Monday night, I crawled into bed circa 8 and slept for a solid 9 hours. Yesterday, I felt 75% better. And today, I feel pretty damn good.
It helps that I worked out with Josh this morning. On my training days with him, I always feel a little better. I can tell I’m getting stronger. Don’t get me wrong I’m quite the spaz on some of the strength exercises. Today, he had me do a variation of a plank on a ball. I made circles with my elbows on the ball as my body stretched out into a plank. Believe me, it’s not easy. And I seemed to have strained a muscle on my right side that made the action even tougher. He coaxed me through it. And accomplishing it made me feel like I could take on anything.
In battling my weight for my entire life, I’ve tried every possible diet. I’ve tried a variety of exercises. Primarily, it’s been a solo journey. Having a personal trainer now focused on my every movement for two hours a week and also monitoring my activities outside the sessions is the right balance of involvement for me. I don’t want to fit into a restricted fitness program. I want a program to be customized to fit me. When we train together, Josh is constantly adjusting my exercises to build my strength. Outside those sessions, I pursue other activities like yoga, FitBit walking, and biking. Josh also inserts his expertise for ‘my homework’, like encouraging me to do 20 minutes of cardio level dreadmill walking daily.
I had an epiphany moment today. I feel like I’m on the true path for optimal health. And it isn’t a scale-based feeling. I’m not focusing on weight loss. I’m focused on being stronger and stronger. And unlike my decades of food restrictions and forced exercise, I look forward to the activity whether it’s training with Josh or yoga or walking. I’m finding happiness in the process instead of seeing the future end result as the happy factor. That distinction is a major evolution of thought for me. I’m not waiting for something to happen to make me be happy. I’m happy in the doing.