I’m by nature upbeat…thankfully! My disposition has been like that from birth. My mom documented in my baby book, “Katy is a sweet lovable little girl with a very sunny happy disposition.” Yes, she’s my mother but I saw what she wrote in my sister’s book. She can be trusted on this early assessment. My genetic composition is high on the happy scale. I’m truly blessed with that positivity factor. Because environmental and hormonal imbalances can be out to get me.
Daily sun salutations and bi-weekly yoga have become my practice. This past week with my Myrtle Beach trip I skipped both yoga classes and two days in a row of sun salutations. On Thursday, I was having an internal implosion. My mind was a hotbed of negativity. I was conjuring up all kinds of mean-spirited energy. It was icky! I excused myself early from a dinner party to go home and go to bed. As my mind festered in the darkness, I vowed Friday would be different.
I woke up with intention. I did my sun salutations. I chanted for my people’s peace and joy. And I put all SIX of my positive energy bracelets on. Since I’m focusing on my hands this week, three on each arm. I looked pretty gypsy. It worked. The gloom lifted. I didn’t conjure a stew of ‘what ifs’ and ‘how comes.’ I embraced the moment, the task, the person that was in my sphere. I was productive at work. I had a delightful dinner and theatre experience with Ellen. I was fully balanced.
According to ye old baby book, I sat up at 6 months. My mom noted, “at first could sit herself up and then would fall till she learned to balance.‘ In my yoga classes, balance poses are hardest on me. I tend to lean too much one way or the other. I’m afraid of falling and overcompensate. I over think it. Sometimes, I move minutely. Sometimes, I jerk my limbs. The change – even a tiny one- does make me fall out of the pose. I lose my balance again and again.
I practice my balance. I focus on centering myself. I want to be true to my nature which luckily for me is a happy place.